ok, so this is a topic i have been thinking about putting on here for a while, but i just had a conversation that sort of brought it to the forefront.

someone very sweet and kind just called me about being interviewed on a radio show. when i got off the phone with her, my family had a nice time joking with me about our new “celebrity” status. i am so happy that people are interested in our issue, and so flattered that anyone would think we could be spokespeople for any cause- but i want to set things straight. this is probably out in left field, but here goes:

we never set out to be a lightening rod for any movement. i was talking to an old friend today and i told her that i always thought that if i would be well known, it would be for doing something.  maybe one day i would do something so special that people would be like, “wow- isn’t it great that she __________________”. fill in the blank with whatever you want, but i always assumed it would be earned.  this just kind of fell into our laps.

i understand that you can be in the right place at the right time (or the wrong place- or in your jammies when the news truck shows up… yikes!).

but this was so accidental, so unintentional. we just did our little thing on our little lawn in our little city- and here we are.  we never decided to “take a stand” or fight injustice or be held up as an example. i feel like what we did is so little in comparison to what really heroic people do that what we did is almost silly.

i think i am a good person. i am a loyal friend and a caring mom and hopefully a decent wife. but i’m so……….regular. there are so many truly wow people in the world- i don’t want to pose as one of them when i’m so not.

i am touched beyond words when people say nice things here and in other places about our family. i am awestruck at the outpouring of support and kindness from people who don’t even know us. i don’t want to downplay that one bit.

but at the end of the day, i am soooooo not wow. i am so astoundingly regular. i think our garden is great, but even the garden is pretty unimpressive in the greater scheme of things.  i think people should have a right to grow food. i think people need to take more responsibility for the choices they make. i think more people need to think before they act. i think governments, large or small, should not be allowed to ride roughshod over their citizens. i think power should never trump truth. but there are so many people out there who are really fighting and really suffering and being truly heroic- they are living these principles when i am just sitting here in my air-conditioned den and blogging about them.

i just want to be clear: i am not rosa parks or gandhi or mother theresa. not even close. i am just me.

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