i remember this song from some time during my school years. luckily, i avoided a crush on john cougar (was he mellencamp yet?), but i did have it pretty bad for billy idol. and i briefly coveted howard jones, after seeing him in concert, but i think he was married at the time :0
anyway, this phrase “hurt so good” always kind of bothered me. as an adult, i can understand that pain can be a singnal that something is wrong. whether in the body or in a relationship, pain should be a warning that something is awry.
but pain for pain’s sake? not a big fan.
enjoying hurt for the purity of the sensation? not me, thank you.
so, this new pain of recovering is not a happy visitor.
i should really embrace the discomfort, and know that each day of this is bringing me closer to feeling better. i should mark the progress i’ve made instead of wallowing in pity. i should celebrate what i can do and not worry about what i can’t.
but in the words of a great comedienne, i should stop “shoulding” on myself 🙂
i wanted to post a recipe today but they are mostly packed. i thought i would say something insightful or inspiring, but my brain is empty. i fantasized about maybe writing one of the most powerful posts ever written, but hahahaha- it’s exactly at times like this that the universe laughs in your face.
so, i am choosing to laugh back.
it’s kind of funny that i’m still walking like i’m 16 months pregnant.
it’s sort of silly that my hands are still not totally under my command, even though today i have had no pain meds at all.
it’s a bit chuckle-worthy that i am literally scheduling my showers around when i will see the doctor next, even though it’s about 108 degrees outside (only 80ish inside), and i am sweating like a felon awaiting trial. (who wants to marry me now, fans???? hahahaha)
it’s utterly ridiculous that i am using various baby wipes and face wipes and cleaning wipes to swipe surfaces of my body that are easy to reach, instead of actually using the indoor plumbing that i am ever-so-grateful for.
so, i’m a sweaty whiney dirty complainy uninspired non-felon garden renegade who does not hurt in a good way, but who still has a sweet and loyal following even though the garden is now in the backdrop.
who could ask for anything more? 😉
take that, universe!
Sep 02, 2011 @ 20:23:11
Being from the south there is only one statement I can make at a time like this…”Bless yo-or haart!!”. That truly DOES cover all aspects.
Sep 02, 2011 @ 20:28:33
It seems to me that your post yesterday, about seeing things from your own and others perspectives is the most powerful thing I’ve read lately and I am always reading books and articles on similar topics. Clear, concise and slap-me-across-the-face right on the money. Thanks for posting that!
Sep 02, 2011 @ 21:15:44
I walked like I was pregnant when I had my knee surgery. It was hard to get up.
Sep 02, 2011 @ 21:20:56
Thanks again (and again) for reminding us all what it is to be human. I love your honesty, and I hope all the discomfort and pain continues to gradually (or rapidly) wane. Time heals, but time takes time.
Sep 02, 2011 @ 21:41:05
I wish I could snap my fingers and take away the pain from you and my grandmother. I don’t like to see my friends and family suffer. I would change places with both of you sou you would not Hurt anymore.
Sep 02, 2011 @ 23:07:53
I never understood that phrase either. 🙂
Sep 03, 2011 @ 07:43:09
If you were concise etc etc etc all the time then that would be a total bore. Its much more interesting just to communicate as real people, complete with imperfections.
I was once told (about 30 years back) that perfection , as in really perfect, was the height of boredom because nothing interesting was going on and there was nothing further to say. So there you are 🙂
get well at your own speed 🙂
viv in nz
Sep 03, 2011 @ 10:10:01
Well, considering they practically took a blender to your insides…I’d say you are doing pretty darn good!! lol
I’ve had my fair share of surgeries so I understand what you are going through, never a pleasant experience no matter how necessary it may be. In the end you will be glad that it is done and over with and that your health has improved as a result. Hang in there, this too shall pass.
Oh and I was listening to another warped song the other day…’Cruel to be Kind’….
Here’s to hoping you have a peaceful, restful day with perfect children…barring that there’s always tomorrow!! **HUGS**
Sep 03, 2011 @ 16:02:41
Oh, Lord, the 16-months pregnant comment makes me cringe. I’m only six months, and I think I may explode if I was like this for more than a year.
Sep 03, 2011 @ 22:54:38
take more pain meds (im a big beleiver) if you need someone to kvetch to please call me 🙂 did the cookies help numb some of the pain? – i can make you lots more 🙂
Sep 03, 2011 @ 22:55:05
or text – *d1 has the number 😉
Sep 04, 2011 @ 02:41:16
HI Julie,
We really enjoyed spending shabbos with your husband and are looking forward to hosting the gantza mishpacha! this blog looks great and there is plenty of urban “farmers” within our community. We just had home grown lemon cucumbers at lunch and our neighbor drops by fresh figs from his tree. Refuah Shleimah
Sep 04, 2011 @ 16:43:56
thank you!! we will look forward to your hospitality 🙂