in elementary school, we used to get magazines every so often called the weekly reader. although i can’t remember the content exactly, i still remember the excitement bordering on unadulterated glee i would feel when these babies were passed out to us.
i think i’ve always had somewhat of an awe of the written word, even to the point where now if i write something down it will endow it with almost magical powers. so sometimes when i need to get clarity on a thought or idea, i will write it (or blog about it) and lots of times- to the continued amusement of every member of my family- i will make lists.
i have to-do lists, and shopping lists. i have project lists, and idea lists. i have lists of things i’m in the middle of and lists of things i should get around to some day and lists of things i want to try to forget (oh i do love a good bit of irony now and again!).
happily, i don’t ever feel buried under by my lists; instead they bring me comfort and peace of mind. they give me a sense of satisfaction and inner calm; even if i can’t actually attend to everything i need to or want to, i know it is patiently waiting for me on a list somewhere.
and if it isn’t, then i can create a new list to accommodate it!
beauty at its finest!
but tonight i was inspired to make a new kind of list (for me at least): a review type of list. a round up of things that have already happened.
because this week i’ve struggled with a few things and i wanted to get down some of what i’ve accomplished in order to make it more real and give myself some well-earned pats on the back.
i said to someone the other day that sometimes we get so comfortable moving in a certain groove that our groove becomes a rut and we eventually get stuck in it.
so in an effort to dig myself out of the well-worn trench of self-deprecation (and not the funny kind), i thought i would really put some thought into what i’ve done right and model some “good for me!”.
this won’t be a global feed-the-needy, save-the-downtrodden kind of list, but these are some of the things i’ve accomplished this week in spite of the things its in spite of:
1- i baked about 20 loaves of really yummy bread. most went into the freezer, but not only did i make a roll for my daughter who always wants one, i broke my cardinal bread rule (i usually bake in order to freeze or for meals only) and told my kids to go ahead and cut open a fresh loaf and eat it just because. yes, it’s such a small thing, but it scored so many happy points for such a small investment. that should be a no-brainer every time!
2- i did a major produce shopping and went to 2 stores. i stocked up on bulk stuff at the bulk place- 50 pound bags of potatoes and onions, multiple gallons of milks and yogurts, 50 pounds of tomatoes, a dozen heads of romaine lettuce, and a bunch of stuff i can’t remember right now- and then went to a little kiosk-type place because the owner is sweet and i just irrationally want their business to succeed. i bought almost all of their leeks, which i sautéed and froze in batches. the owner was, like, gleeful- and it was such a win-win transaction! we bought some big beets that were sweet like sugar, and then a bunch of assorted fruit which delighted my kids. such a small thing, but again- it just gave them so much joy to have so many yummy fruits to choose from and it made packing lunches this week so much fun. *h was a real hero and went with me to both places, which saved me in a big way, so major kudos to *h!
3- we went. as a family, to a friends’ parents’ beach house. normally i would opt out of such an excursion, but for a number of reasons, i said yes. it’s an incredible thing to put aside illness and embrace life once in a while, and it’s a beautiful thing to be able to make memories with the family. sometimes it just pays to get out of the comfort zone of saying no to everything. so, it was a yes day and i had no regrets. enough said.
4- i’m going to mention, even though this is standard, that i did tons of laundry and cleaning around the house. i do this every week, but it really is a lot of work, and i feel like it deserves a mention. so now i’ve mentioned it.
5- we have officially started the homeschooling as of last week, and i am proud to tell you that we are still going well. this week and last we’ve had such fun with british history! even though it was a bit off the topic we have been studying we watched braveheart today (with the deletion of one or two scenes) and it was as good as i remembered. as with all the movies we watch, i stopped it as needed so we could discuss points as they came up and address questions from the kids, and it really reinforced lots of reasons i love to homeschool. also, i am happy to have really cool kids and i enjoy spending time with them!
6- we made some salsa, which did NOT turn out great- but that is also a learning experience. we did some other baking and made a big batch of non-dairy ice cream to go on top of homemade blueberry cobbler.
7- i’ve been doing a lot of reading, just for pleasure, and just because. i’ve been laying around a lot, and i’m not going to make any excuses for that, even though this is a post about how much i’ve accomplished.
my real temptation is to end off with a caveat that i’m sure there are zillions of other things that i did this week that i can’t remember to list, but you know what? right now, i’d rather just spell check this baby and forget about it and go to bed.
because really i think that’s the best gift i can give to you and to myself.
and that’s what i think i’ve really accomplished.
Sep 07, 2012 @ 08:38:45
Taking time for yourself to lie around and to read IS an accomplishment.
Frankly, your list of what you did blew me away. I don’t do one-third that much on a good week. But I’m older. Also lazier.
I admire and respect you so much!
Sep 07, 2012 @ 10:31:23
Julie, have you read The Story of Edgar Sawtelle? Being such a lover of words, you would really enjoy it (even though it is terribly sad in places and ultimately tragic). It is so beautifully written!
Sep 07, 2012 @ 11:07:43
ok- i will put it on the library list. thanks for the recommendation!
Sep 07, 2012 @ 11:09:58
thank you! ironically, last night and into this morning, i kept thinking of things i should have included to pad the list… ho hum… lots of work to do (sheepish grin…)- maybe phil/pheel can help with that…
Sep 07, 2012 @ 19:08:27
You are amazing! I do not do nearly that much, and still wind up exhausted most weeks. Yet the thing that struck me was how much simple joy you brought to your kids. It must have been so joyful for you too.
I too was excited to set aside illness for one night this week to have dinner with friends, but then felt bad the next day. But the experience was worth it.
I wish you many spoons and yes days!
Sep 07, 2012 @ 20:47:29
Sep 10, 2012 @ 01:36:49
I don’t do half of what you do and I’m not suffering from a chronic illness!
Please be kind to yourself! You are amazing!!!
Sep 10, 2012 @ 14:41:55
thank you!